I fantasized being female from a very young age. As a child I would identify with the female in tv shows and movies and enjoyed playing little girl gamse with an older sister. Dressing in female clothing came to be exciting for me as i went underground with my desires. But as I've moved through life, I've learned the need I have to be female runs deeper than what clothing I happen to wear. I have a strong feminine side whether dressed as male or female. I would love to find a man or woman who would be comforatble with me spending some time en femme so that those inner needs can find outward expression. I've been in counseling for some years and am now comfortable with the label of transgendered. I am widowed now and am looking for ways to outwardly explore that which I've for so long kept hidden inside.