I wish i was born female. im male, I am now 40 years old, unfortunatly due to my upbringing, family and social circles ive had no support, i am desperate to be me, I would like to meet people who can be friends to help me transition, I also would like to finally stop being a virgin, yes i am aware of the film, its no joke, when i was 9 my mother caught me waering her things and did not deal with it well. I have repressed my nature until the last 3 years, I have spoken to my doctorm, aparantly there is a long waiting list for transgender. I would prefer to meet people my own age or preferably older. I'm very shy, once youget me talking i don't shut up, lol. Please be gentle and encouraging with me. I work as a carer, i've always been better at helping others, I usually look after people who are end of life or complex. I'm not even sure about my sexual oriantation due to never being me. I live in dreams, there I am a woman, most dreams are just walking down the street and people see me as female. I'm not particularily attrative as a woman, I uploaded a picture without makeup so you can see a true face.
Sorry for rambling on, I would like to try a lot of different things, I'm not sure how adventurous I am.I'm terrified of drowning so nothing involving water at all!!!
I would like to mmeet a hunkym, medium to large build person for a relationshipm, just anyone understanding for friendship.
Even typing this I am experiancing amnxietym, spent so long around people who judge.

Education: A levels

Employer: alcedo care

College/University: blackpool six form

Religion: confirmed COE but honestly I dont know what is out there, I accept any belief, I may not share it but I don't judge or discriminate

Political Views: Middlem, Stability over all else, more transgender awareness and rights obviously

Favorite Quotes: A friend who I used to work with, always made me laugh, "spread em bitch" whenever she cleaned a man, said with genuine affection and tongue in cheek, only to those who she knew and in the presence of those who were understanding, no malice, first person i spoke to about me, lost touch, miss you N.

Books: Anything fantasy or scifi.

Movies: Very openm, like a lot of older movies, better actors and less PC, Yes I understand the Irony.

Television: Have a very open approach, like to watch pretty much anything, to be fair I just like sitting with people and being close

Music: Again very openm, have a guilty pleasure of listening to nightcore. Yes I know its terrible, just cant help myself, dress up and dance

Games: Play on PC alot, love board games, i'm the type who you need to tell when everyone else is bored, if i'm enjoying the game I dont notice

Favortie Sports: football, cricket, american football, rugby, golf, tennis, snooker

Favorite Teams: Been raised on Manchester United, apologies to any other team.
Will happily watch others, not one to spoil the day or others joy.

Favorite Athletes: Boxing, wrestling, UFC, Basketball, Motorbikes. Basically I like Big men or strong men. I think i'm in need of a fater figure who can make me feel safe and loved

Interests: I love playing games, likme to dress up and dance.Want to get my singing voice back so anyone who is able to help with that would be appreciated. Love reading so book clubs, Want someone to cuddle with, would like to finally know what its like to be in a relationship.

Activities: Reading, playing games, shooting, cycling, huggiing I love to be squeezed. Kissing, been mmore than 20 years since that. Typing it all out I must sound a bit soft, I've lived a full life, just an empty one when it comes to love. Really would like to spend a valentines day with someone