Alex T?Girl ? Miss TV Scotland 2004.
It will soon be approximately two years from that horrendous day my wife found out about my girly side, and what a roller coaster ride in life I?ve had in such a short space of time.
Without going into detail, my wife and I have managed to ride through the storms, and things have become much better within our household of late. I first stepped out into the big world in my feminine form back in September 2003 in Manchester with like minded T?Girl friends, and I?ve never looked back since. Planned girly weekends away to Glasgow, London, Manchester, and Milton Keynes have all helped to build up my confidence and feminine look to be the girl I always dreamed I could be in life.
I can remember considering going to the Miss TV Scotland Event back in 2003, and thinking at the time that I could never find the courage to go to such a high profile event en-femme, and decided to remain firmly safe within my closet. After experiencing my first time out, I decided I would book and fully pay for the MTVS 2004 event in advance, and even consider entering the event.
The nerves started weeks in advance of attending the event, and I started getting cold feet, telling my friends that I didn?t think I could go through with entering, although I still had every intension of going this time round. All sorts of thoughts were going through my head, which included wondering if I would just look like a guy in a dress when being compared to all those beautiful girls being done up by the various makeup and dressing services.
The weekend commencing the 29th of October 2004 came, and I turned up at the King Malcolm Hotel not really knowing what to expect. Many girls were already dressed, and I was welcomed by a few girls I knew, before checking in for the weekend. What I didn?t realise was that the accommodation was twin bedded rooms, and I had a room mate I had never met before. However, not being new to such situations, as the same thing happened to me on my first time out, I took it all in my stride and got on really well with my new room mate.
The Friday night had been set up as a less formal and more of a low key event, which consisted of a good fashion show with models showing off the latest dresses, wigs, hats, and my favourite part being the corsets (models in this section being Loraine?s family and friends). The night finished with the ?Icebreakers? disco, which was the reason I decided to go for a more clubby type black outfit consisting of a black RaRa skirt, and black button down frilly blouse. The night had been fun, and it was great to meet up with old and new found friends.
The whole weekend includes the entertainment, breakfasts, and evening meals, and on the Saturday morning there had again been a mixture of girls dressed en-femme and drab. I opted for the drab look during the day, as I hate trying to achieve a close shave in the evening when having already scraped my face a few hours earlier. Oh how I would love to be one of those lucky girls who doesn?t have to shave. During the day trade stands are set up for girls to try on new style wigs, have your nails done, and buy clothes, shoes, makeup, etc. I ended up going out with a number of girls to another hotel for lunch, which gave us all a good chance to have a good natter and a laugh.
So it was back to the hotel for all the girls to get ready for the 7.30pm evening meal which consists of girls mainly in formal wear. One of the girls I met at the afternoon lunch had said she would do my makeup, and because she was a beauty consultant I had agreed to have this done. However, the end result didn?t turn out the way I had expected, and to be honest the whole look really was just over the top and not me at all. I looked at my watch, and I still had one hour left to take all the makeup off, start again doing it myself, and donning the new lavender strappy dress that I had never worn before. I made it in time, and although I was pleased with the look my nerves had already taken a battering. All I could think about was the coming MTVS event, and couldn?t eat all of my meal. The girls at the table did their best to calm me down, until the time came for all entrants to leave and change into their day wear. Well, that was it, no turning back at that point.
Every girl entering the MTVS and Miss Hide and Sleek events had been given a number indicating when they were to walk out into the function room for all the guests and judges to scrutinize your look. It seemed like we had very little time to change, and as usual I had not yet made my mind up about what to wear in the day wear section of the event. I opted for a short black skirt with chain belt, and button down white cardigan, with open toed sandals. OK, I know you don?t see many girls wearing stuff like that during the day, but if I were a real girl, I would, lol.
The girls lined up in numerical order, and one by one each girl went out. I was number 15 and when my time came, my heart jumped into my throat. I took a deep breath and went through the doors. I was met by a big round of applause, with my friends creating a lot of noise at the back of the function hall. With as big a smile as I could muster, I gave it all the inner feminine charm I could walking through the crowd, and finishing with a pose in front of the judges. I realised at that very moment that I was in my element, being me, and enjoying every minute of being a girl. The nerves were gone, and off I walked back ready for the evening wear section of the event.
Another good friend of mine gave me a loan of a beautiful gold halter neck figure clinging dress, matching shoes, etc, and again I had never tried the dress on before. I was very worried that I would look like big Arnie in it, but when I tried it on and looked in the mirror, I was shocked at how good it looked. If I had time, and water proof makeup on, I would have cried at that moment. For once in my life I could see the woman looking back at me in the mirror that I had always wanted to be. Still, no time for cry baby stuff, so off I went ready to do it all one more time.
The second time round was much easier, and the worst bit was having to speak in the male voice that didn?t quite fit the feminine look, lol. After a final walk round by all contestants, we all awaited the results in the main hallway.
The lovely Juliette from Switzerland won the Miss Hide and Sleek event. Then it was our turn in the MTVS event, and the nerves were back once more with a vengeance.
A very good friend of mine, Gayle Gray had been called out in 3rd place, which I was so chuffed about. The beautiful Britney was then called out to take 2nd place. It was then that the biggest surprise in my life occurred when Alex from Falkirk had been called out as being Miss TV Scotland 2004. I couldn?t move, and although it must only have been a few seconds, to me it seemed like minutes before I could walk through those doors again.
The roar from what seemed like everyone in the world met me as I stepped through those doors, with big smiles on everyone?s faces, and me going through what now has to be one of the happiest moments of my life. I reached the stage end of the function suite, and was crowned by Miss TV Scotland 2003, and that is when all the camera flashes started. I was like one of those wide eyed rabbits caught in the headlights of a car. My jaws were becoming sore with all the smiling, and the pics just kept on being taken. However, I loved every moment of it, and will never forget the tremendous feeling it gave to be given such a title.
I lapped up the rest of the night, and didn?t want it to ever end. I danced, chatted, and savoured every moment.
I would recommend to every one of you girls out there to get to such an event if you can, and if you enter as well, you will love every bit of the experience. Yes, not everyone can win, but every girl I spoke to said they would be entering again next year and just loved the buzz.
I?m still on cloud nine at the moment, even as I write this experience down for you all to read. The worst bit is trying to give an explanation to everyone else who doesn?t know anything about my girly side, about why I have such a big smile on my face.
I will be back again next year to hand the crown over to another girl, and if you enter, who knows, it could be you!
Love, Alex T?Girl.